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Falling in love .. falling apart
The perfect phrase!
The moment in witch you fall in love it’s wonderful , it really is. Nothing feels stronger then that moment … that’s until you fall apart. In that second , cause it’s just a second althought it feels like a lifetime, everything crashes into your head and it’s interesting how you are able to remember every little thing that you did, or went through with the person you were in love with.
All those memories make you forget why you broke up and your mind gives you different interpretations of the fight, incident or even talk that drove to the break up. First it seems that it’s your partner’s fault, you find new meanings of every word he said (or maybe in your case it’s a she but i will stick to he cause even though it’s a general talk i write all this words thinking on a particular person) and most of the times we get the bad part of them , and we become angry but this is just for a couple of days and then a strange thing is happenin – we blame ourselfs, what we said or done and many of us don’t do anything about it.
I am one of those people who thinks that he’s always right, well, this might shock you. i admited i was wrong and i wasn’t forgiven. I wish we would get back together but it seems so far from happening it would be the perfect timing , New Years’s Eve.
I’ve been through alot of relatinoships i had my fare share of tears but this one… oh this is a bad one. Maybe because i think that this one should have lasted forever and beyond (and this was one of our lines „I love you forever and beyond”) well i still love him , probably he still does it too , and i know that i’ll keep on loving him for a while after that i’ll find another guy not as smart, not as funny, not as gorgeous as him but a guy that i can live with and that’s scary! I always pictured myself with the perfect man, not perfect for everybody but perfect for me, that type of guy that makes me feel safe and loved, that guy that brigs me flowers just because it’s Monday or calles me at 4 a.m. cause he misses me and wants to say ” i love you !” and wants to be happy more than he wants to be right, and he was that guy till now, and i think that he’s the only one, THE ONE that’s why it hurts so bad cause i’m afraid that i’ll settle for less or maybe he will and we’ll throw away a perfect life , the perfect couple , the perfect mach.
My advice ?
Take care of yourself, your relationship and your partner , try not to be sorry and always chose to be happy over being right !
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